bloodsports; and other unfinished poems

today is not tuesday poetry; but rather a collection of poems i’ll never finish. in the spirit of anti-completionism, i’m excerpting partial-phrases from my notebook at various points in the year. one of the greatest joys and crushing defeats of having an archive of past writing is realizing that so much of it is unfulfilled potential: scraps of beautiful prose that never found a home or a proper resolution. but it’s also gratifying to return to words that you wrote down once because they sounded pleasant, and to find a reminder that they’re just as lovely with mild age. to see where these could-be stories started and stopped.


feat. what people do; chemtrails; would you give me your heart if i asked for it?; any(young)body; salted oranges

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i wake up screaming from dreaming

i haven’t written short fiction in four years, so here’s one-fifth of an incomplete drabble about a girl who tastes dreams.


At the young age of five, her developing wits had given her enough just words to describe what she tasted in the dark. She was a precocious child, but it wasn’t until her sentences spilled out texture, density, aroma, that they realized she had five essential modalities at her disposal.

A dream of sponge cake and sweet strawberries, coated in fluffed cream. A dream of the tannic, acidic bite of an aged red port. A dream of damp grass and balmy soil, stuffed down a closed throat. Might a child recognize the taste of a feeling, a flavour, before they have tried the unknowable thing?

Rare was the dreamer who could could only access what resides at the tip of their tongue. Taste could only name sweet, salt, bitter, sour, umami, then hot or cold. Though every sense was empowered to capture the sensory details of slumber, seeing and hearing were the most common disciplines. Sight could unravel any story, pinpoint complete details with visual precision. Sound could beckon secrets from beneath floorboards and behind shut doors; what is heard only exists because it happened in utterance. Touch could map out a room, a terrain, an instrument; the scald and pulse of something under skin. Taste and smell were not particularly advantaged, but they had their place in the world.

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ripe avocado, runny yolk, french batard

a still-life of avocado toast in the same way keen artists paint fruit in bowls, writers must describe the scarce, simple joys of food.


it begins with a loaf of bread, encrusted: a blank slate with the barest tinge of sour. the base upon which all else stands. the messy incision of a bread knife whittling it to parts. a delicate crumb texture fallen to pieces. turn on the cast-iron hot enough to brand skin. watch the soft insides brown into armor. run along the hardened sides, as it bristles and crackles at the intrusion.

a drizzle of olive oil, then impale the eggshell and let the insides flow. no hesitation, only release. the sizzling gargle of first contact. life, denatured in real-time. imagine the strands of albumen uncoiling, then tangling to form pearly-whites around a scorched sun. lacy edges that dared to outrun the solar system. sunny side-up, smiling against the ironblack.

to eat an avocado is to destroy it entirely, wholly. pierce the leathery armor in half, hollow out the stubborn seed of its core. leave it bare, broken on the kitchen counter. metallic tines digging into smooth flesh, scooped and spliced. sage green smears on canvas, the cresting of imprecise waves.

toast cannot stand without embellishment. sprinkle of salt, briny as the sea that came before it. grind down peppercorns into a shyly-spiced snowfall. and only if the scales demand balance, add the sting of squeezed lemon.

devour it as much as it was meant to be savoured, slowly. feast upon the calculated layers; taste the simple harmonies when they sing out from the crowd. cut open the searing yolk. so satisfying to slice it apart, shot-through the drooling liquid center. marigold yellow dripping down the forearm.

what of your crowning glory

interregnum: discontinuity, or the period in between

this is day one of a mini-writing sabbatical, aiming to publish one piece every day for the next week. just to have something of mine out in the world again. consistent quantity over obsessive quality.


today, we’re writing about succession crises.

ascension. transference. empire / state. king-making.

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to @klyluo, with love

"an internet love letter"

I wrote this back the spring. I’ve meant to edit and polish this into finer form, but I almost prefer the version of this that is raw and unwound. This is the unedited, unvarnished diary of a young girl on the internet. I just wanted it to exist somewhere else in cyberspace—so it’s here.

PRELUDE This lives within a coming of age on the internet story: a nostalgic period piece about the formative years of online existence. Technology not as the central focus, but as the undercurrent. Here are some words that may live in the back of your head as you read—Isolation and anxiety. Panopticon; solipsism. Navel-gazing worldliness. Performances in an empty theatre. Superficial interiority and self-delusion. Amateur; auteur; aesthetic. Splintering, then reconstituting. Taking ordinary things way too seriously. Knowing way too much about everything, everywhere, all the time.

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